This ****** sucks!!!! im so upset?

yeah so my boyfriend and i have been having problems on and off. we were always fighting all the time. he always said i never cared about him yet i do everything to please him like buying y longerie, writing sweet texts, cooking dinner for him and just be all together sweet. but then he started fighting with me a lot. telling me im stupid, my kid is dumb like me, getting mad cause he thought i cut my hair n he said "Relationship lesson 101 if someone your with is attracted to a certain way u should take it into consideration because its that person u wanna attract. ok yeah but if i wanna cut my hair or change my appearance i have a right to do that. im was always trying to please him. all the time. and he kept saying i dont care and that im mean, and i told him its because he is always putting me down and making me feel crap. he has a drinking problem and i never said anything about it. so then my ex gf called me and i called chris (my now ex boyfriend) a friend cause this girl is always in my business and starts drama when im with someone. so he got mad and said i was embared to be with him, im probably cheating on him (i wasnt) and that same night i didnt sit next to him cause he was mad and he said get over here so i did, and he said have with me and make me feel bad for being mad at u so i did it. after i said do u feel better now and he just said oh we just had . he made fun of my ity and said im gonna make u never want a girl again. everytime i went somewhere he always said with who? he always insist i sit on the couch next to him, and whenever we fight he blames it on me all the time. i tried my best to make him happy and he wanted more and more outta me. he was never happy. my mom even said he was a control freak and i could do better. he even told my son to shut the **** up one time. he said nasty things about my son and accused me of spoiling him. my son is only sixteen months old! so yeah he can never admit he is wrong always thinks he is right never even considered my feelings. so the other day i went to a wedding and i said oh a guy asked my cousin to dance it was cute and he asked if the guy ****** my cousin (she's a virgin). i asked him why he would say something like that and he said he was drunk. i got really upset i felt like i wasnt good enough for him and i remember him saying virgins are hot. he said he doesnt care about her losing her virginity, but if he didnt care why the hell would he ask? again shows he does not consider my feelings or care. i mean why would he care about my cousin getting ******? its not a thing to say about my cousin. its rude. oh and he also said that i should tell her about my past exes cause it is his business. my mom told him it is none of his damn business who i was with in the past cause they arent with me in the present its ancient history. anyway after he made that comment about my cousin i cut myself cause i was so depressed (this was friday) and on sunday i saw him and felt like i should tell him how i felt and what i did to myself because he was gonna find out anyway cause he would see the cuts on my arms and legs while we were having . so then he said im disgusting and he wants a break until i straighten my **** out. but he is the one that told me to be honest with him about everything at least i didnt lie about it! but now he acts like he is big **** cause he said im not mentally stable and he is and how he can treat a girl right and that i didnt learn anything and i dont listen to him. but he never listens to me. so im really depressed now and we been together a month and a half but i really cared about him (still do) i try not to think about it but i cant i cried and everything and felt horrible and im trying to get a appointment with my therapist to talk my issues out and fix them not just for myself but because i wanna be with him so my question is once my **** is fixed should i go back out with him or should i just forget about this loser and move on? i wanna ignore him but i feel upset when he doesnt text me and im trying to pretend i dont care but that didnt work for me. should i just act like i dont care?